Sunday, August 31, 2003
a poem, for you.
A Thousand Roses
When everyone chases for flowers
I recall the last moments
we spent in togetherness
Worth more than roses
even a thousand
What I really want is
you
only you
and you alone
A spark in the dark
Spirit of my life
By A. Diella
© 2000 A. Diella (All rights reserved)
note: It seems like my brain hasn't been functioning properly these last few days. I've been missing words, ideas, and inspirations. Luckily I haven't lost my "spirit of blogging". Somehow, I have to let out my innermost thoughts.. So I chose the poem above, taken from here. The words it conveys very much describe what I'm feeling inside. A dear brother of mine, wrote that poem.. And I know he wouldn't mind for me to post it here, would you bro?! ^-*
When everyone chases for flowers
I recall the last moments
we spent in togetherness
Worth more than roses
even a thousand
What I really want is
you
only you
and you alone
A spark in the dark
Spirit of my life
By A. Diella
© 2000 A. Diella (All rights reserved)
note: It seems like my brain hasn't been functioning properly these last few days. I've been missing words, ideas, and inspirations. Luckily I haven't lost my "spirit of blogging". Somehow, I have to let out my innermost thoughts.. So I chose the poem above, taken from here. The words it conveys very much describe what I'm feeling inside. A dear brother of mine, wrote that poem.. And I know he wouldn't mind for me to post it here, would you bro?! ^-*
Thursday, August 28, 2003
I've seen it!
This story took place yesterday night at about 8 p.m. Jakarta time. As I finished my dinner, I went out to my house balcony to get some fresh air. I've heard some of my friends talking about the extraordinary phenomenon happening all over the world that day, and I took the chance to prove it myself.
As I gazed onto the clear night sky, I immediately recognized it! My eyes caught the appearance of a dazzling yellow dot and I knew I've found what I was looking for. I saw it!
Yes, I've seen Mars, the red planet, from such a distance!! I could not be wrong because it stood out from any other shining stars. It was the brightest, the biggest.., and it was sooo beautiful!! The light it sparkled was different.., it was orange-ish..
I immediately shouted to the others to come out, and together we enjoyed this "once-in-79 years" occurence, accompanied by a cool night breeze that refreshed our body and soul.
Ooohh.. I just wish that my digital camera could capture this unforgetable moment.. but it couldn't. As I pointed my camera to the sky, nothing came up to the screen.. It was all black. The shining spot was all too small to be caught by my limited-ability camera.. *sigh*
But I will never forget what I saw last night.. Not every human being on earth could experience the same thing.. At least, they have to wait for approximately another 79 years (could be more up to 284 years) before it re-occurs.. Would earth still exist by then? No one knows the answer.
ps: for further info & reading on this event, visit this page..
Tuesday, August 26, 2003
Dia
Sebuah percakapan yang manis yang mengambil setting di balkon sebuah rumah.. A "meant to be together" couple were standing there side by side. The girl was gazing at the beautiful stars in the night sky, while the boy couldn't take his eyes off the stunning, beautiful face of his girl..
Nadia (Lulu Tobing): Bintangnya kan di sana, kok ngeliatnya ke sini?
Ivan (Ari Wibowo): Karena di mataku, kamulah bintang yang bersinar itu..
[sinetron "Dia", Indosiar 2003]
ps: it touched my heart and reminded me of a similar conversation I had with someone quite a long time ago..
Sunday, August 24, 2003
There's nothing eternal in this world.
And somehow, I hate this fact.
At least.., I want the good things to last..
Am I selfish?
Or is it everyone's longing?
And somehow, I hate this fact.
At least.., I want the good things to last..
Am I selfish?
Or is it everyone's longing?
I just want to cry.. and cry.. and cry.. and cry..
Until the tears have all gone dry..
Until I find myself tired and cannot cry anymore..
Until the tears have all gone dry..
Until I find myself tired and cannot cry anymore..
Friday, August 22, 2003
Tidak diperlukan kekuatan untuk membenci,
tetapi diperlukan kekuatan yang ekstra untuk mengasihi.
tetapi diperlukan kekuatan yang ekstra untuk mengasihi.
I survived my first 12 days in Indonesia without too much hassle.. I think.. ^-^
Hope I can keep it this way for the next few months..
Hope I can keep it this way for the next few months..
Thursday, August 21, 2003
What does your birthday mean to you?
Wednesday, August 20, 2003
delighted
I've just realized how lovely it is to hear a gentle, smiling voice over the phone after quite a period of time.., especially if that voice belongs to someone we love the most..
urgency of life
If you are close enough to the urgency of life..
If you are so close that you can feel it right in front of you..,
then..
The urgency will move you
and..
It demands a response!!
-Bill Wilson- ["Compassion Brings Revival Conference", 19 August 2003]
If you are so close that you can feel it right in front of you..,
then..
The urgency will move you
and..
It demands a response!!
-Bill Wilson- ["Compassion Brings Revival Conference", 19 August 2003]
I think I have given birth to "something" last night..
Sunday, August 17, 2003
Doa Kami
Syukur untuk setiap rencana-Mu
Dan rancangan-Mu yang mulia
Dalam satu tubuh kami bersatu
Menjadi duta kerajaan-Mu
Kami rindu melihat Indonesia
Pulih dari semua problema
Hidup dalam jalan kebenaran-Mu
Pancarkan terang kemuliaan-Mu
Kuucapkan berkat atas Indonesia
Biar kemuliaan Tuhan akan nyata
Bagi bangsa ini kami berdiri
Dan membawa doa kami kepada-Mu
Sesuatu yang besar pasti terjadi
Dan mengubahkan negeri kami
Hanya nama-Mu Tuhan ditinggikan
Atas seluruh bumi
[music & words: Sari Simorangkir - 2002 True Worshippers Production]
Dan rancangan-Mu yang mulia
Dalam satu tubuh kami bersatu
Menjadi duta kerajaan-Mu
Kami rindu melihat Indonesia
Pulih dari semua problema
Hidup dalam jalan kebenaran-Mu
Pancarkan terang kemuliaan-Mu
Kuucapkan berkat atas Indonesia
Biar kemuliaan Tuhan akan nyata
Bagi bangsa ini kami berdiri
Dan membawa doa kami kepada-Mu
Sesuatu yang besar pasti terjadi
Dan mengubahkan negeri kami
Hanya nama-Mu Tuhan ditinggikan
Atas seluruh bumi
[music & words: Sari Simorangkir - 2002 True Worshippers Production]
merdeka!!
Dirgahayu, Indonesiaku..
Saturday, August 16, 2003
simply exhausted.
Friday, August 15, 2003
outer vs inner beauty
Tonight I met a long-time friend after the youth & young adult service held every Friday's night. He still remembered me, and in fact, he was the first to recognize me and ask how I was going. I was glad to meet him, especially since he's a famous person, and I've never expected someone as popular as him to remember an ordinary friend (or acquaintance?) like me.
At the first glance, I recognized his happy face, and I noticed that the smile on his face was somehow different than usual, although I didn't see him so often. I knew the thing that caused the difference. His girlfriend has just got back from overseas for good. And I was happy for him.
As we're having a little chat, he introduced me to that special person. She was exceptionally beautiful with her slim body and long, well-cut hair. I knew that this girl's appearance would match my friend's popularity. But somehow, deep inside my heart, I had an impression that this girl didn't suit him.. It's like they're not meant to be each other. And i grieved for this.. Especially when I found out that some close friends have also reminded him of the same thing, that he should not be with this girl.. But he didn't even bother.
As we separated on our way home, I couldn't help myself from thinking about him. He's like my own brother, and I don't want him to choose the wrong path. I kept asking myself this question, "Why do men always prefer on physical appearance rather than inner beauty?" Well, I've seen some men who realized that the last one was more important, but there are not many of them. Others have just simply followed the desires of their hearts, and thus fell into the trap they didn't even realize because it's covered with lustrous beauty.
Oh well.. there's nothing much I can do now except to say a simple prayer for him to be able to perceive deeper than the outer appearance can offer. And as he uncovers the substance, I do hope for him to have wisdom in acknowldeging the truth and not the lies.
At the first glance, I recognized his happy face, and I noticed that the smile on his face was somehow different than usual, although I didn't see him so often. I knew the thing that caused the difference. His girlfriend has just got back from overseas for good. And I was happy for him.
As we're having a little chat, he introduced me to that special person. She was exceptionally beautiful with her slim body and long, well-cut hair. I knew that this girl's appearance would match my friend's popularity. But somehow, deep inside my heart, I had an impression that this girl didn't suit him.. It's like they're not meant to be each other. And i grieved for this.. Especially when I found out that some close friends have also reminded him of the same thing, that he should not be with this girl.. But he didn't even bother.
As we separated on our way home, I couldn't help myself from thinking about him. He's like my own brother, and I don't want him to choose the wrong path. I kept asking myself this question, "Why do men always prefer on physical appearance rather than inner beauty?" Well, I've seen some men who realized that the last one was more important, but there are not many of them. Others have just simply followed the desires of their hearts, and thus fell into the trap they didn't even realize because it's covered with lustrous beauty.
Oh well.. there's nothing much I can do now except to say a simple prayer for him to be able to perceive deeper than the outer appearance can offer. And as he uncovers the substance, I do hope for him to have wisdom in acknowldeging the truth and not the lies.
After every disappointment, there's always a choice left for us to choose..
To get bitter, or better..
What's your choice?
To get bitter, or better..
What's your choice?
Powerful LOVE
Never forget that the most powerful force on earth is LOVE.
Take away love,
and our earth is a tomb.
[The Breaking, JPCC Monthly News - April 2003]
==========================================
Love.. come and take over now
Come and just heal somehow
The broken and the lost;
Light.. come and take over now
Come and just shine so bright
Chase the darkness of our lives..
[Sidney Mohede, Atmosphere 2003]
Take away love,
and our earth is a tomb.
[The Breaking, JPCC Monthly News - April 2003]
==========================================
Love.. come and take over now
Come and just heal somehow
The broken and the lost;
Light.. come and take over now
Come and just shine so bright
Chase the darkness of our lives..
[Sidney Mohede, Atmosphere 2003]
Behind a great man, there'll always be a great woman..
And behind a great woman, there'll always be a great God..! ^-^
And behind a great woman, there'll always be a great God..! ^-^
Thursday, August 14, 2003
family matters..
Tadi malem gua diundang dinner sama satu keluarga, untuk ngerayain ulang tahun anak perempuan tertuanya, Shanti. Sebelum tamu2 yg lain pada dateng, gua sempet dimintain tolong utk ngupasin kulit batang kailan. Wah bener2 baru kali itu deh, dan itung2 belajar sebelum di-tes sama calon mertua gua nanti.. (huahuahua.. cowok aja ga punya!! =p)
Makanan yg disajiin tadi bener2 luar biasa. Tante Emmy (the mother) yg masak semuanya. Dimulai dari bihun goreng (simbol panjang umur), dilanjutkan dengan cah kailan, sop buntut, dan diakhiri sama udang. Berhubung gua ga doyan seafood, so I missed the prawns. Tapi kata orang2 sih enak banget, dan gua yakin juga begitu.. T. Emmy pinter banget masak seh!
Sebagai pencuci mulut, tuan rumah menyediakan blewah, melon, sama es krim. Ci Shanti sempet beli dua rasa. Yang satu rum & raisin, satunya lagi chocolate fudge. Dua2nya sama enaknya, meskipun rum & raisin lebih difavorit-in. Trus tadi gua diajarin makan es krimnya dipakein rum. Ternyata enak, dan t. Emmy bilang kalo es krim rum & raisin dicampur rum liquor, rasanya jadi mirip2 rasa Baileys. Bener juga ya..
Untuk minuman penutup, ko Aria (anak co tertua dan satu2nya di keluarga) n Amel (the youngest one) bikin iced cappuccino. Enak seh sebenernya, cuma agak kurang kentel dan kurang krim aja. So solusinya, tadi kita minum cappuccino-nya dicampur sama ice cream.. Jadi deh cappuccino float, hehe. Tapi yummy loh!!
Eniwei, gua berasa welcomed banget di keluarga ini. Meskipun gua bukan bagian dari keluarga mereka, tapi gua berasa deket.. Apa gua-nya aja kali ya yang sok deket? Hihi. Engga tau juga deh. Gua cuma mau bersyukur aja kalo Tuhan udah tambahin gua satu keluarga lagi. Family is a blessing from God, rite?!
Hoahhh.. Gua jadi mela deh. Dan gua jadi inget seseorang.. Seseorang yg berarti dalam hidup gua, seseorang yang pernah menghapus air mata gua dan ga pernah bosen menyemangati gua untuk keep on going in this life.., bahkan juga yang mengajarkan gua bahwa keluarga itu satu2nya harta yg paling berharga yg kita miliki di dunia ini.. The only people we can count on and turn to in times of need, no matter how dysfunctional they are..
Duh, tadi tuh waktu lagi hepi2 pesta, gua tau2 bisa keinget seseorang itu, dan berharap dia juga bisa ikut sama2 gua, ngerasain kegembiraan dan kehangatan sebuah keluarga. Karena gua tau, dia tuh kangennnn banget sama keluarganya yg unintentionally harus dia tinggalin nun jauh disana..
Oh well.. gua sendiri kapan ya bisa ketemu seseorang itu lagi? *a deep sigh*
Makanan yg disajiin tadi bener2 luar biasa. Tante Emmy (the mother) yg masak semuanya. Dimulai dari bihun goreng (simbol panjang umur), dilanjutkan dengan cah kailan, sop buntut, dan diakhiri sama udang. Berhubung gua ga doyan seafood, so I missed the prawns. Tapi kata orang2 sih enak banget, dan gua yakin juga begitu.. T. Emmy pinter banget masak seh!
Sebagai pencuci mulut, tuan rumah menyediakan blewah, melon, sama es krim. Ci Shanti sempet beli dua rasa. Yang satu rum & raisin, satunya lagi chocolate fudge. Dua2nya sama enaknya, meskipun rum & raisin lebih difavorit-in. Trus tadi gua diajarin makan es krimnya dipakein rum. Ternyata enak, dan t. Emmy bilang kalo es krim rum & raisin dicampur rum liquor, rasanya jadi mirip2 rasa Baileys. Bener juga ya..
Untuk minuman penutup, ko Aria (anak co tertua dan satu2nya di keluarga) n Amel (the youngest one) bikin iced cappuccino. Enak seh sebenernya, cuma agak kurang kentel dan kurang krim aja. So solusinya, tadi kita minum cappuccino-nya dicampur sama ice cream.. Jadi deh cappuccino float, hehe. Tapi yummy loh!!
Eniwei, gua berasa welcomed banget di keluarga ini. Meskipun gua bukan bagian dari keluarga mereka, tapi gua berasa deket.. Apa gua-nya aja kali ya yang sok deket? Hihi. Engga tau juga deh. Gua cuma mau bersyukur aja kalo Tuhan udah tambahin gua satu keluarga lagi. Family is a blessing from God, rite?!
Hoahhh.. Gua jadi mela deh. Dan gua jadi inget seseorang.. Seseorang yg berarti dalam hidup gua, seseorang yang pernah menghapus air mata gua dan ga pernah bosen menyemangati gua untuk keep on going in this life.., bahkan juga yang mengajarkan gua bahwa keluarga itu satu2nya harta yg paling berharga yg kita miliki di dunia ini.. The only people we can count on and turn to in times of need, no matter how dysfunctional they are..
Duh, tadi tuh waktu lagi hepi2 pesta, gua tau2 bisa keinget seseorang itu, dan berharap dia juga bisa ikut sama2 gua, ngerasain kegembiraan dan kehangatan sebuah keluarga. Karena gua tau, dia tuh kangennnn banget sama keluarganya yg unintentionally harus dia tinggalin nun jauh disana..
Oh well.. gua sendiri kapan ya bisa ketemu seseorang itu lagi? *a deep sigh*
A View from the Top
"Life is full of series of arrivals and departures. But there are many ways to spread our wings."
Wednesday, August 13, 2003
psikotest
It was a scary test I had this morning. And it took me no less than 4 hours to finish all the sections. Yet, I still have to patiently wait for the result which is expected to be available within the next 2 to 3 weeks.
Tuesday, August 12, 2003
a lesson
one thing learned today:
to trust someone is the choice I make to keep believing in him with all my heart, when my mind tends to doubt him.
to trust someone is the choice I make to keep believing in him with all my heart, when my mind tends to doubt him.
updated
Hari ini gua sempet nengokin oma bareng nyokap n sis. Oma sekarang tinggal sama tante, dan oma sempet nangis terharu waktu liat gua. Duh gua juga jadi nangis.. Oma gua udah berubah banget.. Udah tua banget.. 96 tahun man! Dan oma sekarang udah males jalan kemana2. Maunya baring terus di bed. Padahal oma yang gua tau itu orangnya ga bisa diem. Adaaa aja yg mesti dia kerjain untuk ngabisin waktu. Tapi sekarang? Ngeliat kesehatan oma yang drop banget, mau ga mau hati gua jadi trenyuh..
Gua jadi inget jaman2 waktu gua masih SD dan oma masih fit.. Oma itu sukaaaa banget nguncirin rambut gua.. dan gua miss sentuhan tangan oma di rambut gua itu.. Sooo soft.. Hiks.. ='(
Dan yang bikin gua lebih terharu lagi, tante & sepupu gua cerita kalo saban malem itu oma selalu doain gua waktu gua masih di Oz. Oma selalu doa biar gua ga jauh dari Tuhan, biar gua rajin ke gereja, biar gua dapet kerjaan yang bener, dan biar gua cepet bisa balik ke Indo dan kumpul lagi sama keluarga. Hiks.. gua bener2 terharu!! Oma tuh punya anak 7 orang, punya cucu banyak banget, dan udah punya cicit kira2 10 orang lah. Dan hebatnya, she remembers every member of the family!! Gua aja yg masih muda kadang lupa kok kalo gua tuh punya sepupu disini, punya keponakan disana, etc.. Malah kadang kalo ketemu sama sodara yg agak2 jauh, gua masih suka bengong sendiri dan berpikir dalam hati, "Ini masih sodara toh sama gua?" Hehe..
Eniwei.. banyak yg bisa gua ceritain tentang my beloved oma.. Tapi blog ini ga bakalan cukup. So gua decide, mendingan memori2 itu gua inget dan gua simpen dalam hati aja untuk selamanya.. ^-^
notes:
1. Hari ini gua agak2 flu. Ga jelas apa karena kecapean, ato alergi sama debu. Tp yg jelas tadi gua sempet pilek ga brenti2 sampe kepala ini jadi pusing banget. Sekarang sih udah mendingan, cuma tinggal sisa cold sweating doang.
2. Tadi sore gua sempet telpon seseorang nun jauh disana. Seseorang yang gua sayang. Dan gua seneng banget bisa denger suaranya, meskipun dia suruh gua buru2 udahan telponnya karena mahal. Gua sempet ngobrol2 juga sama temennya si seseorang itu.. Pokoknya fun deh, meskipun cuma 5:51 menit. Dan sekarang gua udah kangen lagi sama dia.. Padahal tadi kita udah buat perjanjian, bakalan ga sering2 sms, dan ngebatesin telpon cuma seminggu sekali aja.. Hoahhh!!! Seminggu tuh masih lama bangettttt.. Gua bisa ga ya nunggu selama itu? Hiks..
3. Gua hari ini dapet e-mail dari sis tercinta di Brisbane, Ina.. E-mail yg membuat gua hepi banget sekaligus miss everything and everyone I left back in Brisbane.. ='(
4. Besok pagi, jam 9, gua ada panggilan untuk psikotest dari Hoka Hoka Bento. Emang bulan Februari lalu, sebelum gua berangkat ke Oz untuk wisuda, gua sempet kirim lamaran ke perusahaan ini. Tapi gua ga nyangka mereka baru kirim balesan kemaren, pas banget waktu gua baru balik lagi ke Indo!! So.. gua bener2 berdoa biar kehendak Tuhan aja yang jadi.. I can't wait to see all the surprises He has in store for me!! Dukung gua yaaa.. belon pernah nih ikut test2 begituan..
Gua jadi inget jaman2 waktu gua masih SD dan oma masih fit.. Oma itu sukaaaa banget nguncirin rambut gua.. dan gua miss sentuhan tangan oma di rambut gua itu.. Sooo soft.. Hiks.. ='(
Dan yang bikin gua lebih terharu lagi, tante & sepupu gua cerita kalo saban malem itu oma selalu doain gua waktu gua masih di Oz. Oma selalu doa biar gua ga jauh dari Tuhan, biar gua rajin ke gereja, biar gua dapet kerjaan yang bener, dan biar gua cepet bisa balik ke Indo dan kumpul lagi sama keluarga. Hiks.. gua bener2 terharu!! Oma tuh punya anak 7 orang, punya cucu banyak banget, dan udah punya cicit kira2 10 orang lah. Dan hebatnya, she remembers every member of the family!! Gua aja yg masih muda kadang lupa kok kalo gua tuh punya sepupu disini, punya keponakan disana, etc.. Malah kadang kalo ketemu sama sodara yg agak2 jauh, gua masih suka bengong sendiri dan berpikir dalam hati, "Ini masih sodara toh sama gua?" Hehe..
Eniwei.. banyak yg bisa gua ceritain tentang my beloved oma.. Tapi blog ini ga bakalan cukup. So gua decide, mendingan memori2 itu gua inget dan gua simpen dalam hati aja untuk selamanya.. ^-^
notes:
1. Hari ini gua agak2 flu. Ga jelas apa karena kecapean, ato alergi sama debu. Tp yg jelas tadi gua sempet pilek ga brenti2 sampe kepala ini jadi pusing banget. Sekarang sih udah mendingan, cuma tinggal sisa cold sweating doang.
2. Tadi sore gua sempet telpon seseorang nun jauh disana. Seseorang yang gua sayang. Dan gua seneng banget bisa denger suaranya, meskipun dia suruh gua buru2 udahan telponnya karena mahal. Gua sempet ngobrol2 juga sama temennya si seseorang itu.. Pokoknya fun deh, meskipun cuma 5:51 menit. Dan sekarang gua udah kangen lagi sama dia.. Padahal tadi kita udah buat perjanjian, bakalan ga sering2 sms, dan ngebatesin telpon cuma seminggu sekali aja.. Hoahhh!!! Seminggu tuh masih lama bangettttt.. Gua bisa ga ya nunggu selama itu? Hiks..
3. Gua hari ini dapet e-mail dari sis tercinta di Brisbane, Ina.. E-mail yg membuat gua hepi banget sekaligus miss everything and everyone I left back in Brisbane.. ='(
4. Besok pagi, jam 9, gua ada panggilan untuk psikotest dari Hoka Hoka Bento. Emang bulan Februari lalu, sebelum gua berangkat ke Oz untuk wisuda, gua sempet kirim lamaran ke perusahaan ini. Tapi gua ga nyangka mereka baru kirim balesan kemaren, pas banget waktu gua baru balik lagi ke Indo!! So.. gua bener2 berdoa biar kehendak Tuhan aja yang jadi.. I can't wait to see all the surprises He has in store for me!! Dukung gua yaaa.. belon pernah nih ikut test2 begituan..
Monday, August 11, 2003
marriott bombing
Tadi waktu dinner, sempet ngobrol2 sama keluarga gua seputar kejadian pengeboman hotel Marriott yg terjadi di Jakarta beberapa hari yang lalu. And what a small world, ternyata adik ipar sobat kentelnya bokap, ada di lokasi kejadian waktu insiden itu terjadi.
Jadi ceritanya gini.. Tante Murti (nama sebenernya) dan beberapa koleganya siang itu diundang jamuan makan oleh bos satu bank besar dari Itali, di sebuah restoran yang terletak di lantai dasar hotel Marriott.
Singkat cerita, tante Murti dan temen2nya udah duduk di satu meja bundar besar, ketika ada seorang undangan lagi yang dateng, yang menyebabkan tante Murti dkk harus pindah tempat karena mejanya tidak muat untuk menampung tamu itu.
Karena pindah tempat duduk itu-lah, tante Murti dan temen2nya semua selamat dari ledakan bom. Tante Murti cuma terkena pecahan kaca di lutut, tapi ga perlu sampe masuk rumah sakit.
Tragisnya, si bos bank besar beserta koleganya yang mengadakan jamuan ini-lah yang malah tewas, karena dia duduk di meja yang tadinya bekas ditempatin sama tante Murti dkk!!
Another story masih seputar Marriott bombing..
Seorang foto model bernama Angela, baru saja setengah jam meninggalkan lokasi sebelum pengeboman terjadi. Siang itu seharusnya Angela mengikuti session pemotretan yang mengambil setting di hotel tempat kejadian. Luckily, for her own reason, she cancelled the photo session that afternoon, and thus was spared from the tragedy.
Bener2.. hidup manusia, kapan berakhirnya, ga ada yang tau. Ada satu ilustrasi yang gua denger from a great speaker, Jeffry Rachmat. Kalian semua pasti pernah liat batu nisan dong? Biasanya di batu nisan tuh ada tulisan apa aja sih? Yang pasti selalu ada itu kan tulisan tahun kelahiran dan tahun kematian whoever's buried down there, right? So for example: 1911-1971. Nah, what really matters itu bukannya angka 1911 atau 1971, melainkan the thing in the middle, which is the "-" (baca: strip). Untuk lebih jelasnya.. yang penting itu bukannya berapa lama kita hidup, tapi apa yang kita kerjakan selama kita hidup. Yang penting itu bukannya bagaimana kita hadir ke dunia ini, atau bagaimana kita meninggalkan dunia ini, tetapi bagaimana kita menjalani kehidupan selama di dunia ini. Got it?
Reflection: Apakah kita akan mati, lalu orang2 melupakan kita begitu aja, ataukah kita akan mati dengan meninggalkan orang2 yang akan mengingat kita di sepanjang sisa hidup mereka? So.. live your life sedemikan.. so that people would smile when you're born, but cry when you die.. ^-^
Jadi ceritanya gini.. Tante Murti (nama sebenernya) dan beberapa koleganya siang itu diundang jamuan makan oleh bos satu bank besar dari Itali, di sebuah restoran yang terletak di lantai dasar hotel Marriott.
Singkat cerita, tante Murti dan temen2nya udah duduk di satu meja bundar besar, ketika ada seorang undangan lagi yang dateng, yang menyebabkan tante Murti dkk harus pindah tempat karena mejanya tidak muat untuk menampung tamu itu.
Karena pindah tempat duduk itu-lah, tante Murti dan temen2nya semua selamat dari ledakan bom. Tante Murti cuma terkena pecahan kaca di lutut, tapi ga perlu sampe masuk rumah sakit.
Tragisnya, si bos bank besar beserta koleganya yang mengadakan jamuan ini-lah yang malah tewas, karena dia duduk di meja yang tadinya bekas ditempatin sama tante Murti dkk!!
Another story masih seputar Marriott bombing..
Seorang foto model bernama Angela, baru saja setengah jam meninggalkan lokasi sebelum pengeboman terjadi. Siang itu seharusnya Angela mengikuti session pemotretan yang mengambil setting di hotel tempat kejadian. Luckily, for her own reason, she cancelled the photo session that afternoon, and thus was spared from the tragedy.
Bener2.. hidup manusia, kapan berakhirnya, ga ada yang tau. Ada satu ilustrasi yang gua denger from a great speaker, Jeffry Rachmat. Kalian semua pasti pernah liat batu nisan dong? Biasanya di batu nisan tuh ada tulisan apa aja sih? Yang pasti selalu ada itu kan tulisan tahun kelahiran dan tahun kematian whoever's buried down there, right? So for example: 1911-1971. Nah, what really matters itu bukannya angka 1911 atau 1971, melainkan the thing in the middle, which is the "-" (baca: strip). Untuk lebih jelasnya.. yang penting itu bukannya berapa lama kita hidup, tapi apa yang kita kerjakan selama kita hidup. Yang penting itu bukannya bagaimana kita hadir ke dunia ini, atau bagaimana kita meninggalkan dunia ini, tetapi bagaimana kita menjalani kehidupan selama di dunia ini. Got it?
Reflection: Apakah kita akan mati, lalu orang2 melupakan kita begitu aja, ataukah kita akan mati dengan meninggalkan orang2 yang akan mengingat kita di sepanjang sisa hidup mereka? So.. live your life sedemikan.. so that people would smile when you're born, but cry when you die.. ^-^
capek
Kayaknya blog-blog gua belakangan ini ga jauh dari kata-kata capek, lesu, lemah, letih, lelah, loyo, dan letoy ya.. hehe.
Well.. kalo untuk hari ini, gua bener2 physically tired. Karena gua ngebongkar 5 koper yg gua bawa dari Brisbane, ngebenahin kamar yg kotor dan berdebu banget karena ditinggal berbulan2 sama pemilik tercintanya, and then menata ulang kamar gua sesuai dengan keinginan hati. Belon cukup sampe disitu, kerjaan gua lanjutkan dengan nge-wrap oleh2 buat teman2 dan saudara2 gua tercinta. Duhhh.. kalo udah lagi begitu, baru deh kerasa bahwa punya temen dan kenalan banyak ternyata ada ga enaknya juga.. Pegellll booo!!! =P
Hoooaaahhh.. Semua kerjaan di atas tadi memakan waktu kira2 6 jam, udah termasuk setengah jam makan siang. Selesai ngerjain semuanya, I found myself sweating. Mungkin karena bolak-balik naik-turun tangga mindahin barang2, dan juga karena panasnya cuaca Jakarta!! Sampe2 tadi sore, gua mandi pake air dingin, padahal kalo di Oz, boro2 pake air dingin. Pake air anget aja gua udah ribut, he2.
Hm.. gua masih bener2 belon fully percaya kalo gua sekarang udah ada di negara lain.. Padahal baru lewat satu hari.. Dan jujur, disini gua harus make adjustments lagi with the way of living here. Kayak pas tadi siang waktu ngobrol sama my sis, gua bilang sama dia kalo justru malah di Indo yg gua ngerasa kayak "nge-kos". Aneh ya?
Oh well.. Kalo emang gua harus ditempatkan di Indo untuk sementara waktu, gua cuma bisa percaya kalo Tuhan sendiri yang bakal kasih gua kekuatan untuk ngatasin semua "culture shock" dan adjustments yang harus gua buat.. Are you agree? ^-^
Well.. kalo untuk hari ini, gua bener2 physically tired. Karena gua ngebongkar 5 koper yg gua bawa dari Brisbane, ngebenahin kamar yg kotor dan berdebu banget karena ditinggal berbulan2 sama pemilik tercintanya, and then menata ulang kamar gua sesuai dengan keinginan hati. Belon cukup sampe disitu, kerjaan gua lanjutkan dengan nge-wrap oleh2 buat teman2 dan saudara2 gua tercinta. Duhhh.. kalo udah lagi begitu, baru deh kerasa bahwa punya temen dan kenalan banyak ternyata ada ga enaknya juga.. Pegellll booo!!! =P
Hoooaaahhh.. Semua kerjaan di atas tadi memakan waktu kira2 6 jam, udah termasuk setengah jam makan siang. Selesai ngerjain semuanya, I found myself sweating. Mungkin karena bolak-balik naik-turun tangga mindahin barang2, dan juga karena panasnya cuaca Jakarta!! Sampe2 tadi sore, gua mandi pake air dingin, padahal kalo di Oz, boro2 pake air dingin. Pake air anget aja gua udah ribut, he2.
Hm.. gua masih bener2 belon fully percaya kalo gua sekarang udah ada di negara lain.. Padahal baru lewat satu hari.. Dan jujur, disini gua harus make adjustments lagi with the way of living here. Kayak pas tadi siang waktu ngobrol sama my sis, gua bilang sama dia kalo justru malah di Indo yg gua ngerasa kayak "nge-kos". Aneh ya?
Oh well.. Kalo emang gua harus ditempatkan di Indo untuk sementara waktu, gua cuma bisa percaya kalo Tuhan sendiri yang bakal kasih gua kekuatan untuk ngatasin semua "culture shock" dan adjustments yang harus gua buat.. Are you agree? ^-^
Sunday, August 10, 2003
especially for Reza..
The post below is specifically written for a dear friend of mine, Reza..,
"I'm so sorry I didn't make the last call before I left. I was actually waiting to see if you're going to call, but you didn't, and that's really okay. I understand that you might be busy that time I departed.
I sent you a message before the plane took off. I know your cellphone wasn't working, but somehow I believe that you would be able to receive the message and read it.
Reza, I don't regret that there's only a little time left after we made up our friendship once again. I only hope that this time, the friendship would last forever.
So.. there's no good-bye for now.. 'coz we have the hope that we'd see each other again, rite?!
Be good ya.. ^-^ I miss you already!"
"I'm so sorry I didn't make the last call before I left. I was actually waiting to see if you're going to call, but you didn't, and that's really okay. I understand that you might be busy that time I departed.
I sent you a message before the plane took off. I know your cellphone wasn't working, but somehow I believe that you would be able to receive the message and read it.
Reza, I don't regret that there's only a little time left after we made up our friendship once again. I only hope that this time, the friendship would last forever.
So.. there's no good-bye for now.. 'coz we have the hope that we'd see each other again, rite?!
Be good ya.. ^-^ I miss you already!"
confused
Hanya dalam hitungan jam, sekarang gua udah berada di negara lain.
Bener2 ga bisa dipercaya sekarang gua udah ada di Indonesia.. A country which is supposed to be my home country, a place where I belong to.
Tapi kenapa..?
Kenapa waktu gua mendarat di airport malam ini, gua merasa aneh?
Kenapa waktu gua ngeliat kesibukan lalu lintas dan orang2 di sekeliling gua, gua ngerasa bahwa gua bukanlah bagian dari mereka?
Kenapa waktu panas dan lembabnya udara Jakarta menyapa, gua tiba2 rindu terpaan angin musim dingin di satu negara di belahan bumi Selatan sana?
Kenapa, kenapa, dan kenapa?
Gua capek.
Gua bingung.
Dimanakah sebenernya gua harus berada?
Can someone please answer this question?
Before I get myself lost completely.
Bener2 ga bisa dipercaya sekarang gua udah ada di Indonesia.. A country which is supposed to be my home country, a place where I belong to.
Tapi kenapa..?
Kenapa waktu gua mendarat di airport malam ini, gua merasa aneh?
Kenapa waktu gua ngeliat kesibukan lalu lintas dan orang2 di sekeliling gua, gua ngerasa bahwa gua bukanlah bagian dari mereka?
Kenapa waktu panas dan lembabnya udara Jakarta menyapa, gua tiba2 rindu terpaan angin musim dingin di satu negara di belahan bumi Selatan sana?
Kenapa, kenapa, dan kenapa?
Gua capek.
Gua bingung.
Dimanakah sebenernya gua harus berada?
Can someone please answer this question?
Before I get myself lost completely.
Friday, August 08, 2003
h.o.p.e.
Gua kangen nge-blog.
[I miss blogging.]
Banyak banget kejadian2 yg udah terjadi selama 5 hari terakhir ini..
[So many things have happened during these last five days..]
Kejadian yg gua sendiri masih ngga percaya bisa terjadi dalam hidup gua..
[Things that I still couldn't believe could ever happen in my very own life..]
Kejadian yang akan selalu ada dalam kisah perjalanan hidup gua dan ga bisa dihapus..
[Things that have been recorded in my life journey and could never be erased..]
Kejadian yang cuma bisa diinget, dan diambil hikmahnya..
[Things that I could only remember and learn from..]
Kejadian yang gua tau, bisa membuat gua menjadi lebih dewasa dan berani menghadapi hidup di depan gua..
[Things which I know, have helped me to be more mature and courageous in facing this life in front of me..]
Ga peduli seberapa jauh jalan yang harus gua tempuh..
[No matter how far I have to go..]
Ga peduli seberapa gelap jalan yang harus gua lalui..
[No matter how dark the path I'm walking on..]
Karena gua tau pasti.. Akan selalu ada harapan menanti di ujung sana..
[Because I'm sure of this very thing.. that there'll always be hope waiting on the other end..]
ps: for a dear friend.. I thank you, for always reminding me that this world is built with hope. Without hope, these lives of ours are nothing. Your life has inspired me to keep on hoping..
[I miss blogging.]
Banyak banget kejadian2 yg udah terjadi selama 5 hari terakhir ini..
[So many things have happened during these last five days..]
Kejadian yg gua sendiri masih ngga percaya bisa terjadi dalam hidup gua..
[Things that I still couldn't believe could ever happen in my very own life..]
Kejadian yang akan selalu ada dalam kisah perjalanan hidup gua dan ga bisa dihapus..
[Things that have been recorded in my life journey and could never be erased..]
Kejadian yang cuma bisa diinget, dan diambil hikmahnya..
[Things that I could only remember and learn from..]
Kejadian yang gua tau, bisa membuat gua menjadi lebih dewasa dan berani menghadapi hidup di depan gua..
[Things which I know, have helped me to be more mature and courageous in facing this life in front of me..]
Ga peduli seberapa jauh jalan yang harus gua tempuh..
[No matter how far I have to go..]
Ga peduli seberapa gelap jalan yang harus gua lalui..
[No matter how dark the path I'm walking on..]
Karena gua tau pasti.. Akan selalu ada harapan menanti di ujung sana..
[Because I'm sure of this very thing.. that there'll always be hope waiting on the other end..]
ps: for a dear friend.. I thank you, for always reminding me that this world is built with hope. Without hope, these lives of ours are nothing. Your life has inspired me to keep on hoping..
Monday, August 04, 2003
feeling terrible this morning.
it's like everything's spinning around me.
it's like everything's spinning around me.
Sunday, August 03, 2003
congratulations!
buat another newly jadian couple, Sukandi & Tina: CoNgRaTs!! Your happiness is my joy. I really can't say much.. But all that I know is, you both are made for each other.., perfectly. And you both have my sincere blessing on your relationship.. ^-^
ps: kenapa ga bilang2? takut dimintain traktir ya? =P
ps: kenapa ga bilang2? takut dimintain traktir ya? =P
trust
I've just realized how stupid I've been these last 3 months. I've never believed the truth, and instead, accepted the lies.
This cost me one ruined relationship.
Glad tonight I was given a chance to make it up once again.., eventhough it's kinda late..
To the person I did this mistake to: I'm really really sorry.. For being so stupid and blind all this time. I'm sorry for doubting you, questioning your love & faithfulness, and eventually.., hurting you and causing you to create all the lies on which I preferred to believe.
Thank you.. for constantly loving me despite all my foolishness and selfishness. Thank you.. for accepting me as I am, and never asked me to change. And most of all, I thank you.. for never giving up on me.
As I'm writing this note for you, I pray.. that the road will lead us to see each other again.. someday..
I'll miss you. A lot.
Valuable lesson learned: trust plays a really important part for a healthy relationship..
This cost me one ruined relationship.
Glad tonight I was given a chance to make it up once again.., eventhough it's kinda late..
To the person I did this mistake to: I'm really really sorry.. For being so stupid and blind all this time. I'm sorry for doubting you, questioning your love & faithfulness, and eventually.., hurting you and causing you to create all the lies on which I preferred to believe.
Thank you.. for constantly loving me despite all my foolishness and selfishness. Thank you.. for accepting me as I am, and never asked me to change. And most of all, I thank you.. for never giving up on me.
As I'm writing this note for you, I pray.. that the road will lead us to see each other again.. someday..
I'll miss you. A lot.
Valuable lesson learned: trust plays a really important part for a healthy relationship..
Saturday, August 02, 2003
Did some packing today.
I'll surely miss every single thing in my "upper-extraordinary" room.
I'll surely miss every single thing in my "upper-extraordinary" room.
