Wednesday, June 30, 2004
t w i s t e d
You have a twisted soul!Twisted Souls are never bad, and actually, are a rarity amongst souls. These souls are a little combination of everything, with always a little of their own chaos to add. Twisted Souls are kind, loving, weird, zany, temperamental, and very talented. They have their own firm opinion, and can at one time be very outspoken and passionate, and the other time shy and feeling insignificant. Twisted Souls have good senses of humor and other times can be a bore. You can act quite intelligent at one time and grasp concepts easily, while other times they can find it difficult to understand. Twisted Souls are always very fun and kind, and can be party animals. But, if you love someone, you're serious about it, intense, and forever loyal. Congratulations - the world should have more like you!
What kind of soul do you posses?
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what candy are you?
You're chocolate. You're the old soul type,people feel that they have known you their entire life.
Many often open up to you for they view you as thoughtful and trustworthy.
Although people trust you, you have a hard time trusting them.
You prefer to keep your feelings bottled up inside, or display them very quietly.
It is alright to open up every once in a while.
Which kind of candy are you?
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Sunday, June 27, 2004
without you.
Friday, June 25, 2004
tapi kenapa aku harus merasa kehilangan,
jika aku-lah yang menginginkan perpisahan?
updated later:
dan apakah ini yang benar-benar aku inginkan?
aku tidak tahu.
and a tear dropped..
you don't know what you've got
until you lose it.
how true!!
until you lose it.
how true!!
[a private afternoon talk with my lil sis, over the phone - 23 June '04']
me: i just don't have confidence in myself.
sis: no, sis. the truth is you believe too much in yourself.
unfortunately, what you believe is false.
me: i just don't have confidence in myself.
sis: no, sis. the truth is you believe too much in yourself.
unfortunately, what you believe is false.
Wednesday, June 23, 2004
call me a fool.
Tuesday, June 22, 2004
Friday, June 18, 2004
why Europe?
i don't know.
i don't know.
i'm missing Christmas..
too bad it's still six and half months away from now.
*sigh*
too bad it's still six and half months away from now.
*sigh*
seek not to understand that you may believe,
but believe that you may understand..
[Santo Agustinus]
but believe that you may understand..
[Santo Agustinus]
Wednesday, June 16, 2004
Tuesday, June 15, 2004
Time stands still. As Cinderella enters the palace, all eyes turn to gaze at her beauty.
From her flowing gown to her sparkling glass slippers, she graces their presence like an angel.
[The Princess Within - Serita Ann Jakes]
I am an ordinary girl who desires to live a life of Cinderella.
I desire to be beautiful, to be the center of attention at the ball.
I tremble at rejection, and am afraid of getting disappointed.
I blame the past, refuse to live in the present, and fear the future.
but it was me in the past..,
I am a unique personality with a heart of gratitude for the chance God gave me to live an extraordinary life just as Cinderella.
I praise God for I am wonderfully and perfectly fashioned in such a way that His eyes has never left me unnoticed even just for a second.
I exercise love, for I believe that love covers every seed of bitterness, including rejection and disappointment.
I thank God for His faithfulness that carries me through my past, presently walks by my side, and directs me of ways I should be taking in the future.
and this is me in the present.
I'm glad I was born to be a princess. The truth is I'm beautiful in God's eyes, and no one can rob that fact from my heart, ever. =)
From her flowing gown to her sparkling glass slippers, she graces their presence like an angel.
[The Princess Within - Serita Ann Jakes]
I am an ordinary girl who desires to live a life of Cinderella.
I desire to be beautiful, to be the center of attention at the ball.
I tremble at rejection, and am afraid of getting disappointed.
I blame the past, refuse to live in the present, and fear the future.
but it was me in the past..,
I am a unique personality with a heart of gratitude for the chance God gave me to live an extraordinary life just as Cinderella.
I praise God for I am wonderfully and perfectly fashioned in such a way that His eyes has never left me unnoticed even just for a second.
I exercise love, for I believe that love covers every seed of bitterness, including rejection and disappointment.
I thank God for His faithfulness that carries me through my past, presently walks by my side, and directs me of ways I should be taking in the future.
and this is me in the present.
I'm glad I was born to be a princess. The truth is I'm beautiful in God's eyes, and no one can rob that fact from my heart, ever. =)
= harvest time =
today i evidently experienced it by myself,
that we will always reap what we sow.
years ago, i sow into one's life sincerely, without expecting anything in return.
hundreds of weeks later, in one moment i anticipated to happen the least, i picked up the fruits of the seeds i scattered. with gladness.
so for you all,
"Cast your bread upon the waters,
for after many days you will find it again.."
[Ecclesiastes 11:1, The Living Words]
ps: for you, thanks for top "it" up!!
that we will always reap what we sow.
years ago, i sow into one's life sincerely, without expecting anything in return.
hundreds of weeks later, in one moment i anticipated to happen the least, i picked up the fruits of the seeds i scattered. with gladness.
so for you all,
"Cast your bread upon the waters,
for after many days you will find it again.."
[Ecclesiastes 11:1, The Living Words]
ps: for you, thanks for top "it" up!!
Friday, June 11, 2004
gw lebih percaya
bahwa "cinta tidak dapat dipaksakan"
daripada "cinta tidak dapat dipindah-tangankan".
[arsip pribadi percakapan dengan seseorang, tadi sore.]
bahwa "cinta tidak dapat dipaksakan"
daripada "cinta tidak dapat dipindah-tangankan".
[arsip pribadi percakapan dengan seseorang, tadi sore.]
i just want to sleep
with a smile on my face,
and later to wake up
with another smile and contentment.
is it too much for asking? =)
with a smile on my face,
and later to wake up
with another smile and contentment.
is it too much for asking? =)
Wednesday, June 09, 2004
an unexpected, surprising call..
words of wisdom that spoke straight to my heart..
witty jokes and encouragement stories that made me feel loved and cared for..;
they all left me speechless,
in not knowing how i was supposed to react.
all i knew, i missed two open arms and a tight beary hug..,
and still missing them now.
words of wisdom that spoke straight to my heart..
witty jokes and encouragement stories that made me feel loved and cared for..;
they all left me speechless,
in not knowing how i was supposed to react.
all i knew, i missed two open arms and a tight beary hug..,
and still missing them now.
Tuesday, June 08, 2004
s o m e t i m e s . .
this posting is meant to be a gift for someone who's been trying to touch the deepest corner in my heart..
somehow, out of my ego and past wounds, i've been hurting that person's feelings instead, straight to the point where i amaze myself that i was capable of doing such aching acts and saying those stinging words.
there was nothing much left to say really, so i chose this song. an oldies that might serve as the best thing to picture closely what's in my heart.
so for you, enjoy the lyric!!
".. sometimes when we touch
the honesty's too much
and I have to close my eyes and hide
i wanna hold you til I die
'till we both break down and cry
i wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides"
[sometimes when we touch - dan hill]
somehow, out of my ego and past wounds, i've been hurting that person's feelings instead, straight to the point where i amaze myself that i was capable of doing such aching acts and saying those stinging words.
there was nothing much left to say really, so i chose this song. an oldies that might serve as the best thing to picture closely what's in my heart.
so for you, enjoy the lyric!!
".. sometimes when we touch
the honesty's too much
and I have to close my eyes and hide
i wanna hold you til I die
'till we both break down and cry
i wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides"
[sometimes when we touch - dan hill]
tonight as i cleaned my face up in front of a big mirror in my room,
i was stunned to recognize the beautiful eyes God gave me.
two eyes that shine just as crystal,
so bright and clear.
but as i stared for a few more seconds in front of the glass to adore them,
i started to notice something else in there.
i saw hurt,
i glimpsed pain,
and i observed lies,
in these eyes i admire so much for as long as i've lived.
and suddenly,
i felt really old
and tired too.
i was stunned to recognize the beautiful eyes God gave me.
two eyes that shine just as crystal,
so bright and clear.
but as i stared for a few more seconds in front of the glass to adore them,
i started to notice something else in there.
i saw hurt,
i glimpsed pain,
and i observed lies,
in these eyes i admire so much for as long as i've lived.
and suddenly,
i felt really old
and tired too.
Monday, June 07, 2004
i have to be an answer to this world,
and not a question instead.
and not a question instead.
Thursday, June 03, 2004
i watched this movie 2 days ago,
and it taught me one thing..;
that selfishness would never prevail.
at the end, it's true that these are the only things that will remain:
faith, hope, and love.
and the greatest of them is love.
[taken from 1 Cor 13:13, inspired from the movie "The Day After Tomorrow"]
and it taught me one thing..;
that selfishness would never prevail.
at the end, it's true that these are the only things that will remain:
faith, hope, and love.
and the greatest of them is love.
[taken from 1 Cor 13:13, inspired from the movie "The Day After Tomorrow"]
